I must admit


I conquered a fear

At last I did

A fear of “The Fear”

I must admit

Unknown to me that I could be

Free of worries that have crowded me

I sat there praying for my safety

As the wind scraped my face and my body

While sitting on a machinery

That was said to be of no safety

In shocking view of my reality

I realized that Fear was just my imagery

It had no way of knowing my ability

And therefore I broke my dependency

Freedom replaced the Fear in me

The Motorbike Freed the whole of me

For the story click on “Ecstasy at its Best


The Growth of Trust


How could this be?

Feelings so strong I can hardly see

Questions I ask…things I say

Nothing resembles me

At peace I feel, so strongly at peace

You embrace my heart with all your warmth

Trust is what you have offered me

Freedom is what I feel

Free to feel your love and free to touch my soul

Trusting you is easy

You made it easy

Reality is the truth

Delusion is what I used to see

Behind the wall I lived

So hidden and so serine

In private I divulged in vain as others caused me pain

You helped me break free from the chains I carefully wrapped around me

I trust…… I respect…….I feel


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Thank you Poets Rally for Your awards

I want to thank you for the awards, i really appreciate it more than words can say, even my poetic attempt at thanking you would be limited to your generosity in giving me all three awards.

I wrote an apologetic poem to all those who left comments that i have been unable to respond to or dive into their poems.


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I apologize

I want to apologize for my lack of interaction

The last few months were nothing but action

A whirlwind of events

A hurdle of content

My time has been spent

On others being content

I read your comments

I loved each one of them

I have yet to respond

To all of them

A few more days

A few more nights

I tell myself every night

Anticipating a little break

I hope to find time for my blog tonight.


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Meant to be


Above it all

I want to fly

oh so high

Above the sky

I want to see

What life would be

A choice i have of This or That

This I say

but That i follow

Confussion fills

the all of me

I simply cant see

what’s meant to be

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Where to begin?


Reality hits the inner core of my being

Where to begin, how to begin

A look into the future, the want of being the best

A constant push towards success

A feeding urge to find ones self

A house, a car, a job, a self

All concerns towards ones health

To occupy, To fulfill

In a world which offers no thrills

Before the end, you try to find

The peace within the heart of your mind

Neglect of change, the need to stay

Colors so bright, makes it hard to see the light

A simple path…..some say it is

The harder one, well…lets keep as is

When the time is right we say

That’s when well find the God within

An easy task they say it is

To no avail life takes its toll

The end it says to the soul


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Tender Heart of Stone


I have been blocked Internally

I am unable to love normally

I am trying to heal

but its taking its tole

My tender heart has turned to stone

I am trying to love yet there is nothing to look for

The anguish…the pain…oh so much more

You must see what is happening to me

I wish i was free to love your way

But “Free” is not coming my way

I dont know what more I can  say

Logic seems to dictating my way

Published in: on January 26, 2011 at 8:00 am  Comments (23)  
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Pain inside


A pain inside I can’t disclose

A spiral down a spiral up

It seems the down is where I’m at

What is this ach I feel inside

I try my best to push it aside

To no avail it lingers on

“I hate you all so much it hurts”

The anger grows and spirals up

I’m done with caring oh so much

I yearn for love

I yearn for light

And yet there is no such delight

The anger grows and eats me up

“I hate you all so very much”


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(December 09th 2005 )

Eternal tear drops within every beat

Melodies        Rhythms         Emotions

A butterfly floats…………….soft breezes of wind

Sour, sour, sour

A pulse of a heart…….of a drum……..of a MELODY

Passionately it plays with my emotional self

A self absorbed within the beauty of the rhythm

I close my eyes……………Color

I lift my soul………….Euphoria

I DANCE………………………………Serenity

Playful, gentle…….Eternal


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I Wish I May

(2 November 2010)

As I sit in the abyss of my thoughts, I take another puff of my on going addiction, I dream of all the things I wish to have and the life I wish to live and I start to write my wish list…

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this  wish with love and light………

To live in a house by the beach

Where the water curves itself against my feet

As it pulls back and forth from the shore

I feel it pull at my soul.

The sky is clear with the softest breeze

As It carries the scent of the salty air

Towards my senses I feel no despair.

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

To bask in the sunlight that penetrates through my window

As I get ready for a brand new day

I Smell the freshness of the salty air

As it caresses itself against my hair

I walk outside to head to town

A cobbled street of coffee shops and markets

I stop in the street to take a look at the breathtaking view

Of the vibrant greens on the mountains containing the flow of the ocean

Oh what a view…….

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

To watch passerby from the comforts of my home

As I stand outside on my small terrace

Waving hello to all those I know

Providing a smile to those I don’t know

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

To take a walk towards a close by area as i sit on one of nature’s formed rocks,

My feet embedded neatly on the rocks I feel the energy emanating from its ever so powerful force

I hear the sound of the flow of the river

I smell the freshness of the green

A place of water and sand of flowers and rocks

I sit there to contemplate, to write, to paint and sometimes to get resolved.

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

Every day I spend an hour or more

Sitting in a coffee shop on the streets I adore

Harmoniously  indulged in a conversation with my loved one

We watch the array of strangers passing by us

We discuss and contemplate the insights we encountered in our day

we count our blessings for such a beautiful day

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

On certain nights where the city sleeps and nature takes a bow

I slow dance to a gentle melody engulfed in the scent of the one I love.

In utter silence we gently touch,

A tender kiss a soft caress

We take the steps to dance and laugh

We thank the Lord for the Love we have

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have this wish with love and light………

My soul is free to express itself

Within the confines of my body it tells

To allow my spirit to show itself

on the shores of nature I dance in a spell

With the power of passion taking over me

Without a care in the world to who can see me.

I wish I may ,I wish I might, have these wishes with love and light………With all my heart i wish tonight to have the wish that i find ever so bright